Present.
As in, Past > Present > Future wala Present. Not the cliche 'today is present' etc. It never is.
I had read sometime back, there is nothing called as 'present'. Its just a thin line that seperates past from the future. Every moment that is yet to come- is the future, and that has come, is past. Not at any moment, one can 'be' in the present. Its always the moment that has passed or the moment that is yet to come.
That depressed me!
So if nothing is 'present', then what am I holding on to? If there is nothing called 'Now', then I either 'was' or 'will', never 'am'. Then what 'am' I?
The struggle of life and salary and money and happyness and stree and status and everything else, is either 'was' or 'will' exist... Nothing is 'Now'. Then what am I struggling for?
I guess 'now' is not a state. Now is a feeling. An illusion.
