Conference

Conference

In development sector, attending some or the other conference, preferably for oral presentation (yes, it is called Oral presentation!), if not then poster presentation, is a matter of pride. Getting a scholarship to go overseas, great! If your organization sends you, Oh... My... God!

I am recently added to this OMG herd. Where and how are immaterial, the real fun is what happens surrounding it.


I was discussing it with one of my colleagues, who asked me a question. "So do you feel indebted to the organization?"

I had to think about it. No, i think. Me being sent to a conference to represent my organization makes me feel closer to the organization, helps me build faith and trust about it. But it does not make me indebted to it. I am not saying it is their duty. No, it is not. It is like parenting. Raising a child is not their duty, they do it naturally, with passion. Sending someone to a conference must have a cause behind it, not motive. Going to a conference with organization's money should have responsibility, not debt. 

I am definitely obligated by the gesture the organization has shown, but I am not in debt. 

It is like, if I overwork, or create something out of the world for the organization, I can be sure the organization will never fire me?

One thing at a time

One thing at a time... Yes, that's how I happen to work...

I am an ordinary man. I have small dreams, want to set my life on an ideal course. But I feel, i can do only one thing at a time. I read in the inspirational type books a list of things you must do everyday... i agree to all of them, but can not do it all.

If I decide to follow child psychology and dedicate complete attention to Kabir, then i stay awake for a long time at night. Then 'read till you drop' motto goes off. Then i can not get up early in the morning and 'early to bed early to rise' sleeps back to bed. 
Reducing the belly fat has been my ambition for a long... long time. Has never worked so far. You need dedication and getting up early. Exercise and hike/walk should become an integral part of your routine. Child psychology does not take into account physical fitness of the parents...

Visiting gods (sitting at home) has always made me feel good. Meditating and dhyana are fascinating, at least feel like i am trying to give some time to myself. But, it has conditions, dependencies. Unless all the other things are clear, one can not do these. If i get up at 8.30 in the morning, need to reach office at least by 10.30 (my office starts at 9.30, I am ill-famous for being 'supremely punctual'), then clean yourself and do all other biologically required things consumes most of my time. On top of that, if Kabir gets up then whoa... It is a different game all together. Where will i find god in all this?

I love to work in the garden. Plant trees, water them, see them blooming and fruiting (i don't know what they call when a plant has fruits), it is a pleasing joy! This joy also is expensive. it demands time, water availability etc. And what will pose as a question is really unpredictable...


If I try to become a perfect father, I have to live with the fat tummy. If I follow strict (not even strict, loose will also do)fitness regime, then my plants and books go unwatered. If i decide to eat breakfast everyday, i usually miss the lunch! If i decide to read the books i like, i miss on to the sweet mischief of Kabir. 

So basically if i do one, i miss other 7. I think that is fine, that is life. 

It is good to be ideal, but fun to miss things. That's human!  

Newspaper at home

Thinking...

Newspaper at home

we stopped taking newspapers long back. Our schedules are such that many times the newspaper delivery boy hits a locked door, thus does not put the newspaper, but we end up paying for it. So, we stopped taking it all together.

but, having a newspaper helps. I was reading it in my office today and saw some serious accidents, some people frauds, some corporate national frauds... thought i am missing onto so many things which i need to know, which others think i should/ must know...

Reading newspaper is a hobby for some people, OCD for some. It is nothing for me. Neither a hobby nor a requirement. I read if i find it lying on the table, i don'c care if it is not there. I know a few who get restless if they do not read the news in the morning, even their bowel movements are synced with it... 

I never cared...

And after reading today's newspaper... Like everyday, I still don't!

:)